We have had Nellie-Anne home for a week. And now that I’ve had some time to reflect, I realize we’ve experienced Day 1 two times.
Our first Day 1 was the day Nell was born – January 1st. Our entire world came crashing down around us. We weren’t prepared for her to come 13 weeks early. We weren’t prepared to leave the hospital without her. We weren’t prepared for a 3 month NICU stay.
A week ago we experienced Day 1 all over again – March 10th. We left the hospital WITH Nellie-Anne. And once again, we weren’t prepared. We had no idea what was about to happen. The sleepless nights. The paranoia. The tears – from both the baby and myself.
But look at this. This is how far we’ve come.
We’ve gone from intubation and sedation to nasal cannula to no oxygen support.
We’ve gone from tube feeding only 1.5ml to tube & bottle-feeding an ounce to exclusively bottle feeding 2 ounces.
And now we’re home. And we’re learning her all over again. We’re learning about feeding and diaper changing and sleep. We’re learning how to live this new life. Because for 10 weeks she had 24-hour care, a set routine, and someone to constantly monitor her for us. Now, it’s all mommy and daddy. And we’re…doing it.