Have you ever heard of the Enneagram? It’s essentially a personality test to show how you perceive the world around you. I am a type 1 wing 2. I know that just sounds like a lot of numbers, but if you understand it it makes more sense. Basically, this test tells me that I’m a planner and I like for things to be perfect. There’s so much more to it, but these are the things that are relevant for what I’m telling you.
I learned about the Enneagram when my home church, Sandals Church, did a series where it was the focus [A Series Called: You]. The biggest thing I took from this test was learning how to become a healthy type one in Christ. I know that I like things to be perfect, but I have to understand that they won’t always be that way.
This didn’t sit well when it came to my baby girl wanting to join us 3 months too early. I didn’t plan this. It wasn’t the way I thought things were going to happen. Now, I have to get down on my knees and pray every single day that I remain in the peace that is His plan.
For now, we visit our girl at least twice a day. We get to hold her, change her, and feed her when we’re there. And all we can do is pray that she is surrounded by loving, caring nurses and doctors. We pray that she feels His love and peace. We pray the Lord gets us through this difficult time because we can’t do it on our own.
[Our first family photo]
Our girl is growing bigger and stronger every day. Each day we get to set new goals for her and hear about how she is achieving them. These include her tolerating her feedings, gaining weight, and breathing on her own without any machines or assistance. The more she eats and can keep down, the more weight she gains. Right now she’s receiving oxygen and breaths to keep her breathing. Once she can tolerate the amount of oxygen and the rate of breaths she’s being provided, the doctors will reduce it all little by little. Our goal is to, eventually, have all of those tubes out of her mouth and nose.